So... this week has been a mix of ups and downs. The highs are so high here but the lows are so low! I feel like I always take 2 steps forward and then 1 backward. I was doing awesome and then Tuesday..... oh my gosh. Can I just tell you about the weather here.... at night its been -40. Pipes have been freezing and bursting all over, school was canceled Tuesday and Wednesday because it was so cold. They said anybody with exposed skin outside longer than 10 mins. was at risk for frost bite. ... but missionary work wasn't canceled! .... It was so hard to be positive when people opened the door... told you that you were crazy to be outside ( thanks captain obvious) and then shut the door on your face..... or if they were nice they'd say " stay warm!" hahaha..... ya.... maybe if you let us in!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I wont lie... I was a baby. Satan got to me and I got discouraged, but I did better the next day and I've been happy the rest of the week.
I had a neat thought on Sunday while I took the sacrament though... it was that my HF and Savior knew that I would have good intentions of wanting to be such a good missionary... etc but they knew that I would be homesick or falter too... and that’s ok...that’s why I take the sacrament every Sunday and what the atonement is for. The atonement is to make up for when I'm being retarded.
For valentines you can pick the following:
1. share a gospel principal or your testimony with a stranger
2. invite a friend to any sort of activity
3. write me a snail mail.
Any of these will make me feel loved. Do all three:)
I'm happy though. I really am. I have tons of laughing happy moments every day now. Life is beautiful.
I'm starting to dream about the people we work with which is exciting... it means they are on my mind more and I'm thinking about them and love them.
Something Sister Hamilton said to me too was that when were out tracting etc. and it seems like we are not helping anyone or doing anything that we are still serving the Lord...... that makes me feel better.
Here is a Mormon joke: What do you call an ocean full of pasta? apostasy... pasta sea.... get it....
It was incredible to see and know what it feels like to have an investigator who is continually learning, progressing, and drawing nearer unto the Lord.
I LOVE SISTER HAMILTON. please force her to stay? just 1 more transfer at least?
I'm grateful for prayer. Prayer has been my biggest outlet here on the mission.
So there is a homeless lady sitting next to me at the library right now and it has taken some of my time away.
_________ wasn't going to be able to make it to church this Sunday thus, we were going to have to push back her baptismal date but her volley ball coaching game randomly...( miraculously) got changed to be in Denver instead of Colorado springs and she was going to be able to make it to sacrament. she came to church :) and is getting baptized this Tuesday. Sister Hamilton and I feel so blessed to be a part of ______'s life and to have a baptism together and what a tender mercy for Sister Hamilton to have one before she heads home. :) I love Heavenly Father!
The crowfoot ward is incredible. They feed us, they pray for us, they try to invite their friends to activities, we've received referrals from them... the ward is awesome.
( p.s. the homeless lady just took a drink of my diet coke hahaha.)
SARAH FREAKING FOOTE! if you ever get/ read this you best be writing me a letter! I CANT HANDLE ROME ITALY!!!!!! I'm so proud and excited for you. I will write you as soon as I can. xoxoxo love you so hard.
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
Christina-isms or Quotes From the Field
"First off... I feel like I want to beat up every person that told me my mission would be the best experience of my life!.... people forgot and left out how tough it would be. haha. (especially the first week.) THANKS A BUNCH TEAM! jk. hags. but seriously..... I can't even begin to explain how hard its been. "
"My plan to get negative thoughts out of my head is obviously not perfect yet. I have done one or two things. 1. Replace it with a blessing. 2. Say a prayer. "
"I am SO SO SO SO GRATEFUL that with all the mess of adjusting to everything else that I have not questioned my testimony. I KNOW this is Christ’s true church. I really literally do. So with that in mind I'm striving to do the best every day that I can."
"...It was a surreal moment to feel like, 'oh... so this is what it's like when your investigator doesn't show up for church."
"Some days I think 'wow it’s already week 3.... halfway through my first transfer....' and other days I think.... oh my I still have 69 weeks (yes I counted) but things are getting better slowly but surely. Sundays are the best... because I feel like I'm helping. I am reminded of the quote by Ralph Waldo Emerson that says 'To know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived this is to have succeeded' ... that’s all I'm trying to do, whether it be with my companion, or a member, or a person on the street we contact, if we can make them laugh or 'breathe easier' for the 30 seconds we talk to them... then I have succeeded for the day. "
"It’s funny how I am strengthened just a little bit and then humbled hugely again... its like weight lifting... the Lord is continually tearing me down and building me up in a matter of hours on this mission. but... I love him, and I won’t question his motives...I only ask that he gives me the strength to get through the hard days and times. I have been humbled to realize how worthless I am without Him. How did I live a normal life before without relying on Him this much?"